Sunday, January 2, 2011

I must admit, I've been very bad...


Even the man in red said so. Can you believe he left me nothing more than this Lump of Coal (and the griddle I purchased and wrapped for myself)?! And trust me...this Lump was aweful, just aweful. Blechk!!
I'd like to blame my absence from the blog on new baby, Christmas chaos, holiday overwhelm...but truth is I just haven't felt up to blogging. Period. So bad of me, I know. For lack of a better advent plan though, the silence for me has been nice. With several of our children born near Christmas and just after, I've enjoyed a special connection with the Blessed Mother over christmas' past, and found myself "preparing" right along with her. This year was a bit different though. Instead of preparing, I felt more in tuned to her "quiet years" in Nazareth. Those hidden, interior, ordinary times in her life when her days were spent keeping house, preparing her son, and building her marriage.

Many days over the last couple months I've felt as though I'd failed somehow in my spiritual life...making less time for prayer (aside from the frequent "Dear Lord help me!"), and getting from one day to the next without actually appreciating the ordinary. (shoot somedays it was an accomplishment just to get a shower!) Yet I'm reminded when I think of Our Blessed Mother, and her "ordinary" days here on earth, how she shows us that wherever we're at in life is exactly where God intends us to be. I'm certain I've shared before, a line (paraphrased) from one of my favorite books (The Imitation of Mary), that "Our current state is not a barrier to holiness, rather it is our pathway to holiness."
Certainly these past weeks of silence have helped me to realize what blessings I've been given, and allowed me time to appreciate my current wonderfully ordinary days, as I try to see one moment at a time as an opportunity to grow in holiness.
Thank you all for your prayers and patience as I attempt to share the good news of His works here on earth through the blessings of our beautiful, crazy, ordinary, chaotic days of raising 11 children.
Yes, I do commit to trying to post more frequently here. I've missed connecting with you all, and appreciate knowing that you've not given up on me totally.
Peace to all in this new year! ~jamie

7 comments:

Anonymous said...

Well it is about time young lady....Santa left that coal because you were bad in not keeping your blog up and he missed reading it. So you better be good the rest of the year or you will get another lump........ on you head Santa says......

jamie said...

@ anonymous: Mom, is that you?! (still making Santa threats after all these years?) ;-)

MJ said...

Welcome back - missed reading your blog. Can't imagine trying to keep up with 11 - my 2 kept me running!! ;)

Anonymous said...

Not me, Jamie. Ozzie the elf must be telling on you. Kinda' makes you wonder who now, huh? ...Mom

Martha said...

YAY! Welcome back, Jamie! Those ordinary things you do in your beautiful loving home are wonderful, and as you're in the middle of dishes and laundry and supper preparation, I know that you are on a pathway to holiness. You keep it up! Love you!

Barb said...

I can understand completely. I haven't felt like blogging in ages, even when I have a few minutes and could.
Beautiful post...
I hope you have a blessed, joyful 2011.

Jannis said...

Glad to have you back. I have really missed you!!!