The First Steps, by Vincent Van Gogh
(Deacon John referred to this painting in his homily on Sunday)
(Deacon John referred to this painting in his homily on Sunday)
Almost every day, I find time to open up my computer, check e-mail, peek at a blog or two that I follow, and sometimes even check in here. Random thoughts roll around in my head about things I've been meaning to share, but most days I feel like I don't have the time to develop those thoughts into words, and so I close the computer back up, and hope for more time "later."
I'd be dishonest if I didn't share that lately, I want to just call it quits. (with the blog, that is.) As I go through "dry spells" in my faith life, when nothing seems especially enlightening or overtly worth mentioning/celebrating...I'm just trusting, and hanging in there...I feel as though I'm stringing you along through the mundane. And if I'm feeling "blah" about things, I must certainly leave that impression with you too. So my mind toys with the idea of just packing it in...pretending there was never a blog, and feeling assured that none of you will miss it when I've gone. (Certainly there's another on your list of favorites that will fill the bill.)
Seriously. Who am I?
And then, we go to Mass. (And Little Miss Anne does not...she stays with Grandma.) And I get a good swift kick in the butt thanks again to beautiful music (we sang "The Summons" again,) and great readings, and a homily that felt like it was written specifically for me. ME. (Because to answer my own question, I am HIS!) And even when I seem to be only "going through the motions," He reminds me to continue to trust. And as we take those first steps towards something new, even first steps toward starting over He is there...providing us with the people and the tools we need for take off...to encourage us, and even to catch us should we stumble. (Lord knows, I feel like I've been stumbling lately.)
And so, if you're willing to keep checking in...I'm going to try to keep taking baby steps, attempting to put all these thoughts and inspirations into words. Hoping that by writing them out, my thoughts will become actions...a lived faith, and trust in God's perfect plan...a way to bring our family into a deeper relationship with Him, and in turn, your family too.
Peace & God Bless
but he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is made perfect in weakness.” I will rather boast most gladly of my weaknesses, in order that the power of Christ may dwell with me.
~2 Corinthians 12:9
