Thursday, July 12, 2012

The First Steps

The First Steps, by Vincent Van Gogh
(Deacon John referred to this painting in his homily on Sunday)

Almost every day, I find time to open up my computer, check e-mail, peek at a blog or two that I follow, and sometimes even check in here.  Random thoughts roll around in my head about things I've been meaning to share, but most days I feel like I don't have the time to develop those thoughts into words, and so I close the computer back up, and hope for more time "later."

I'd be dishonest if I didn't share that lately, I want to just call it quits.  (with the blog, that is.)  As I go through "dry spells" in my faith life, when nothing seems especially enlightening or overtly worth mentioning/celebrating...I'm just trusting, and hanging in there...I feel as though I'm stringing you along through the mundane.  And if I'm feeling "blah" about things, I must certainly leave that impression with you too.  So my mind toys with the idea of just packing it in...pretending there was never a blog, and feeling assured that none of you will miss it when I've gone.  (Certainly there's another on your list of favorites that will fill the bill.)

Seriously.  Who am I?

And then, we go to Mass.  (And Little Miss Anne does not...she stays with Grandma.)  And I get a good swift kick in the butt thanks again to beautiful music (we sang "The Summons" again,) and great readings, and a homily that felt like it was written specifically for me.  ME.  (Because to answer my own question,  I am HIS!)  And even when I seem to be only "going through the motions," He reminds me to continue to trust.  And as we take those first steps towards something new, even first steps toward starting over He is there...providing us with the people and the tools we need for take off...to encourage us, and even to catch us should we stumble.  (Lord knows, I feel like I've been stumbling lately.) 

And so, if you're willing to keep checking in...I'm going to try to keep taking baby steps, attempting to put all these thoughts and inspirations into words.  Hoping that by writing them out, my thoughts will become actions...a lived faith, and trust in God's perfect plan...a way to bring our family into a deeper relationship with Him, and in turn, your family too.

Peace & God Bless


but he said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for power is made perfect in weakness.” I will rather boast most gladly of my weaknesses, in order that the power of Christ may dwell with me.
~2 Corinthians 12:9

12 comments:

Anonymous said...

Please don't stop. I check your blog every day & so do my kids. I LOVE your posts!!

Anonymous said...

I too look forward to your blog. You are such an inspiration to me. When I get in a "lull" with my faith, I turn to you for your wise words of wisdom!!

Anonymous said...

Oh Jamie, we would all be sad if you through in the towel. I do understand where you are coming from. As my kids are getting older, I feel I am less and less spiritually grounded. To many schedules and places to be. It is hard to find the balance when you have both little kids and older kids in the house. Also consider your blog is going to be such a treasure some day for your children and your grandchildren.

God Bless You and your beautiful family!!!!

Pam Kaiser said...

A.Men! Keep up the great work, Jamie! We all love you! <3

Anonymous said...

I don't want you to stop either. I love reading your posts, you give me ideas of things to do with my kids. You inspire me too. You are so good at putting your thoughts into words, I wish I could do that! I know a lot of people that like your blog also. Thanks!

MJ said...

I would definitely miss your blog. I also check in everyday. God bless you and please keep on blogging!!

Karen Kauffman said...

Jamie,
You have a God given gift with your ability to translate everyday life and God's beautiful gifts into the written word. We all know how busy you must be with 11 children... your ability to reflect during all the hustle and bustle is inspiring for those of us that only have 3. Keep up the great work! Let's all pray for each other that we can keep God the center of our focus and use his divine inspiration in helping us make the right decisions in life!
Karen

Anonymous said...

What Karen said.
What is so appealing about your blog is precisely that you can ask "Seriously. Who am I?" The fact that you are an ordinary Catholic who is living her life and her faith the best she can (and doing pretty well, I might add), and reflecting on how God is present in your midst, is what I like about your blog. It's OK if you have spiritual dry spells and lulls. I don't expect to have an epiphany EVERY time I read your blog, lol!

Anonymous said...

What Karen said.
What is so appealing about your blog is precisely that you can ask "Seriously. Who am I?" The fact that you are an ordinary Catholic who is living her life and her faith the best she can (and doing pretty well, I might add), and reflecting on how God is present in your midst, is what I like about your blog. It's OK if you have spiritual dry spells and lulls. I don't expect to have an epiphany EVERY time I read your blog, lol!

Anonymous said...

What Karen said.
What is so appealing about your blog is precisely that you can ask "Seriously. Who am I?" The fact that you are an ordinary Catholic who is living her life and her faith the best she can (and doing pretty well, I might add), and reflecting on how God is present in your midst, is what I like about your blog. It's OK if you have spiritual dry spells and lulls. I don't expect to have an epiphany EVERY time I read your blog, lol!

Anonymous said...

I stopped at Church to say a rosary yesterday. Offered up a decade for you and your family. When I finished your decade, this is the thought that was given to me. Your blogging allows you to see and seek how God is working in your life even when time doesn't allow you to always share it with others.

Thought I needed to share this with you. Many blessings to you and your family. You have truly been a blessing to many!

Anonymous said...

You are to continue sharing your gift, as you definately have one.